Suspend, delay …

I like long term plans….is not important in what domain they are. I like to be an active person….but…sometimes…I want to have the force to suspend everything….to delay the time… just to stay … and look… and understand. It’s fun to say….but I don’t like when someone do this thing and change my plans… So, the question is: I have the right to stop? Just for a moment… 

Almost 24 hours

It was just a moment….after years and years. And that moment changed many things.

You can now think at something, a little thing or a big thing that produced a change in your life. And you can ask yourself,  if it was good or bad … or is easily to put that moment in a dream. I’m not awake….everything is just an illusion…

Are or was 24 hours of words and impressions. A lot of ice and snow in these 24 hours. It was real cold outside of my brain:)

In a drop of ice…it was… a fire moment. I felt it, I still have this sensation….it was an idea…was some words… we are playing with fire all our life, isn’t it? And now I wonder if it was fire or just a lost moment?  All of our life is composed by fire or cold moments…is it true? 

About gifts

Because …soon will be December…the month’s gifts  … let’s talk about “things” which we can offer. There are may kinds of gifts….First I stop on beautiful things like words…. With words we can change the entire world. We can offer tender words….isn’t it? And today…I realize something… If you don’t tell something, that thing is lost…and that part from you is lost….maybe not dead, but lost… So….from this moment…I shall try to remember that, all the time. What other things we can offer? Material things….well….is not easy….but is not so hard to offer gifts. First….I think  is stupid to give someone something to remember you….bleah….You must to give her/him something that she/he likes. Second…only things that a person will kept are feelings and memories….so think to give  a present that will provoke  nice sensations....
For today....I found a nice quotation: “ In our happiness, we must  to keep always, a sad corner in our deep soul”(Jules Renard)

A way to live....

Today someone from my YM' list had this status....and I think is ... I don't know.....I can't find words but you can understand(with your heart is probably better):

" If you don't know what to do with your hands, than you must offer some caress".  (Jacques Salome).

An autumn day

A raining day...without sun...but with ideas that filled my mind.You can relax first with this beautiful link:  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ldPf3yqq3-8
Why? Is a question that follow us our entire life. Why are we here? Why some people are in a way ... but at the same time all are so different. You just can ask questions..why? why? but you will never know which an answer is right or not. Everything is relative and again a question appears: relative to what? Today I finished a book written by Jerome Clement "Women and love€". Well.... let'™s say that is an interesting book with a lot of interesting ideas.
I found some beautiful and maybe real asserts:
- "Loves means to give someone something that you haven'€'t and that person don't desire it. "(J. Lancan)
- another expression that is really funny if we associate it with love is: " A panther dosn't say that jumps. It jumps! "
Even if people say that love "goes through our stomac",  you can read this link : 
http://www.sciam.com/article.cfm?articleID=242CBE56-E7F2-99DF-37DEAE209E877BFB&ec=b_cn4

Sun is shining

To decide how to live is a hard problem...because you have a lot of unknown variables like: life, you, decide :)

You just can imagine a way where you just can intuit what that things mean.

I wonder....and I try to limit my questions to what I feel....is the only thing that is link to so called reality.... If you put your finger in a fire ..your finger will be burnt....so I think...this is a kind of reality.

But.....what about reasoning? We can explain our feelings with the reason help. Oh.....again another unknown variable: reasoning.

I think to the computer science approach, actually artificiall inteligence domain about ontology.

People tried to create a big ontology...for all people....but they didn't succeeded. So....the direction was to develop ontology for every little universe...and then to link this ontologies between them. 

Can be this an example of how life must be interpreted....or is a wrong way....and like others and others generations we lose our time....anyway...what is time?Look at this link...too see with which part of your brain are you thinking out ;)  http://www.news.com.au/heraldsun/story/0,21985,22556281-661,00.html

15 Octomber

It's a day.....even is with a lot of significations for me, is just a simple day. It's a sad sensation..or is just a dictated attitude. But who can make the difference?

Far away, among people(nice or not), words(nice or not) I relived some moments. Oh....unconscious moments....what I was thinking at:) But....all the time we must learn from our actions( theory said that). Of course for every mistake...there is a drop or a lake of sorrow.

I felt fullfiled by thoughts..... and I realize that we are just some sadist creatures. Just make this exercise: imagine a thing that you need a lot...and a dear person impedes you to obtain that thing..... what will be your first and simple reaction?

I cand tell you for sure..that you will not think at her/his reasons...you just think yours.

So....

A day...running through us ...

A day...running through us ...He don't realize...or he ignore...how often he did. Any sign...means nothing for him? What illusion...no one is special for someone...We  just have sensations...A bitter joke...on the empty edge of a glass... A drop of agony, a drop of knowledge.

I kept it for a moment....pendulous...but it slides down. I let it go...because...anyway....who knows what answer I could receive... a thought which deserved to die....undeserved thought.The wind breath is a soft touch for a helter-skelter soul. But we cope with that like always. Again a sad smile was flying on the face covered by his own image. A mystery variant, why not?

The leaf felt down on the emptiness of the asphalt and you, passer-by, you press on it without mercy but you didn'€™t seen this. You are too busy with things that apparently are important, but you forgot  things that can make you  feel accomplished. The seeming completion..its a long way which can guide you to a finish that seems happy but is not the €œreal€ place. Stop  .. for a moment and look to the leaf. Is not a work of art .. is just a  beautiful leaf because is simple and complex in the same time. Even she is separated  from his parent tree, she is a leaf which is alive  and which vibrate.

Think  traveler,  that in leaf'™s universe you are actually the leaf and she is the passer-by. Imagine that you allow to be taken in her hands/ nervures  watched ... and may be the autumn will not bring you dead, instead it will give you a new born moment, under a carefully mould of a radiance hands.

I started a long time ago...

I started to think a long time ago....or may be is just my illusion.

I started to love ...before to know what I'm.

I started to touch ...before to know how to walk.

I started to dream...before to know how to remember.

I start to know... that illusion is in every corner.

I start now...with this new illusory start:)